12 months on E
wow how time flys. I have been on oestrogen for over 12 months now it's amazing how I feel so little is different whilst also so much has changed. Emotionally I cry 😭 a lot easier then I used to happy and sad crying I feel more connected with my emotions. My sexuality is shifting this is a big shock I still like girls more then boys but I find myself more attracted to men as time continues to move forward. I suppose this would classify me as Bi or at least Bi curious.
male orgasm is gone and a more female orgasm occurs let's just say OMG so much better sorry boys I don't miss that. All of my documents except my birth certificate now say female this was a huge step forward for me. Breast growth has slowed but is still happening just slower now I actually fill an B cup a lot better then when I started. Hair on my face still grows but is a lot less I will still be happy when it's all gone and the hair on my head is a more feminine length now which is good. Well that's all for now hugs 🤗 and kisses 😘 I miss you all ❤️
Women we are diverse
Here we have a group of women one is transgender but as you see all women.
To judge ones gender is wrong if someone says they are male they are if they say they are female they are it isn't anyone's right to say other.
Out of the blue
Facebook your friend or foe.
I made a comment on Facebook today that was directed to the women in a Facebook group. Being that even though I am transgender I consider my selfie to be as much a woman as my cis counterparts I made a comment well then the shit hit the fan so to say.
i was asked are you a man?
😟no I say I am a woman.
you look like a man.
i had a hormone problem I say.
Then a women from the group says he is a man directed at me.
Wow so disappointed so let's get this right.
Yes I was born with male genitalia yes I have two lovely sons yes I have been married. I have also lived the last 44 years as a man but a man I am not.
I sufferd from what transgender people like to say testosterone poisoning.
It dosnt mater if your FTM or like me MTF what dose matter is how we feel and for myself I have always felt like a female I don't consider myself to be anything other then that.
Like being gay lesbian or bisexual we do not choose this it is how we feel gender is no different it's how you feel.
Nobody changes their gender on a wim we do it because this is who we are deliberately outing or misgendering a person doesn't make you a good person.
This choice we have made was a very hard thing to do Please don't make it harder it already is.
And remember this we are who we are.
Hugs and love ❤️ to all people.
Accepted as me
Its strange when most people I met now accepte me for the woman I am it makes me happy to be accepted as such finally as a young child I new I was different to other girls but I so wanted to be accepted as a girl and not a gross boy that I was reminded I was by all the girls I was friends with as they got older and no longer accepted me in there group.
well now my body has the hormone levels of woman no longer am I smothered in male hormones my body is still changing and looks better every month.
I will see my psychiatrist in December for what he believes will be the last time. He is very happy with my progress as well as how grownded I am.
Most of my ID is now Ms with only two left to change my home loan and my Birth Certificate. As I said it's nice to finally be accepted as the woman I have always been..
Thank you to all that have supported me with everything.
well it's time to update it's been 9 months on hormones and things are traveling as expected my t levels are at a normal female level as is my estrogen levels which is fabulous I feel so good as well. Puberty is a slow process and takes time but I am finally more accepted as the woman I am which is good I am now on another t blocker as well as spiro and an estrogen gel this is to even out my hormone levels a bit more which should help as well. More updates to come as things happen well that's all for now till next time love hugs to all.
Are you a cross dresser?
Hello again it's been a while such a busy life.
A few weeks ago I had the pleasure to attend a mental health first aid class it was very informative as part of this the class we all went out to dinner on Saturday night which was fabulous.
After dinner me and my friend were bored and decided to play billiards there was a group of I will call boys at a table at the end of the billiards table and another table next to the be one we were on.
The Boys were chatting away as you do when your out at the pub whilst we played billiards we had played three games when my friend had to go to the toilet I continued to play and wait for her to come back when one of the boys walked up to me.
Hello he said I said hello back then I got Don't be affended or anything but are you a cross dresser. WTF! Did he just hell no I said straight back at him no I am a woman ! To which He quizzed me a bit further to which I kept telling him no I am a woman I didn't tell him I was a transgender woman it was none of his business.
Afterwards he went back to the table where all the other boys were and I heard him say it said its a woman they didn't really carry on any more but it upset me we finished our game and left the boys to them selves.
I told my friend what had happened whilst she was away to which she got pissed off about I told her not to worry which she did. I was more upset that this compleat stranger thought it was ok to ask if I was a cross dresser when so many other people take me for the woman I am and no I am not a cross dresser. So don't ask a complete stranger that question. Get to know a person befor you judge them From appearance. I was always learned to never judge a book by its cover obviously others haven't learnt that.
When you look at me
? When you look at me who do you see the woman I am or the person I was. For me I always see the old me a person I am sorry I really do not whant to see its hard when you are reminded about the old when all you whant is to be seen as you. It takes time for people to adjust to the change but I hope people can see the happier me the one on the left.
You see for me I have always been the person on the left the person on the right was for show somthing to hide behind to fit in and be accepted.
Their comes a time you can hide no more you have a need to get out and show the real you to stop hiding. The good news is that more people see the real me now and accept me the woman I am.
Hormones ups and downs
Well it has been 7 months on blockers and oestrogen. Happy to say not many downs but there are days you could say I was more hormonal then others as for ups wow. I am happier then I can ever remember body growth and development is coming along slow and steady which is a good thing. Face hair is still a problem but IPL has helped to curb its growth.
I am am finaly being accepted more as myself and as a woman which is fantastic but I still have a long way to go. I see the endocrinologist again in 3 months which will be good. I know I am on the right path now.
I haven't put the levels of blockers or estrogen I am on hear as every one has a different road to travel but the levels I am on are working just fine.
Love and kisses to all. Xx
Times are a changing
Sorry it's been some time since I posted.
Have finely seen my endocrinologist this went really good my blockers have been increased and the whole time I was in Adelaide I was accepted as the women I am. This is so good I have changed so much from the start. It makes you feel good to be accepted. Though in the same respect there are still people around that think that as a transgender person I am perverted or weird this really hurts. But still I feel so much better and know this is right for me.
lots of love to you all and thank you to my supporters xx
first year girl 2015 a journey I have just begun.